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Wednesday, March 21, 2012 3:48 PM
First time

First time in my life I'm grateful for the distance between us.
For the first time I'm thankful my job brings me away for awhile. Cause for now I can't look at you and say I'm fine. Cause I'm not. I cant look at us and pretend it doesn't affect us cause it does.
For the first time I ask myself the value of me in you, I came up blank. Past remains past. I have my own too. And for once I'm telling myself to let it slide. I hate myself for thinking like that, but can you see where I'm coming from? 江山易改，本性难移。太多的不安全感。如果每天玩惯，会有定下的那天吗？我不是你原本会喜欢的女生。我一点也不自主，我不会容忍就算是一点花心，我不成熟，我还有一大堆的不安全感，我有我的情绪。我需要的远远超越我说的。早该接受的事实，只有我傻傻的以为不会发现。所有人都说，只是我执意要相信。太多的问号只有行动能回答。如果我对你重要，你会一次一次的伤害我吗？你的伤害可能是无心的，可是不代表我不会痛。不代表我的心不会一点一点的冷却。我需要一个人想清楚，爱你的代价，现在已经超出我的负荷。


*[[lenice]]*


i’m just who I am, who I suppose to be.
bold italic underline strike
it's so over.


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