Friday, February 24, 2012 2:21 AM
Exactly.
Someone recently asked me what is it that I want in life.
To be honest, get out of this shit hell hole.Just walk away.
To be specific, I just want my own life. A life where I don't have to be responsible for anyone else but me.
To be really frank, i just want to come home to someone. It the thought that you have someone who you can depend on. It's the thought that you have someone who you shares your life with. It's going home to somewhere where you know that someone is waiting for you just cause he/she wants to see you and not anything else.
In short, I just want someone to build a relationship with.
I always feel being surrounded and yet feels like I'm alone. Like people around you are just strangers, yet strangers you know. It's kinda selfish. Most people would love to have an emotional independent other half isn't it? Yet, sad to say, I'm just exactly the kind that drag you down through the shit with me.
Today, I asked myself, would I be able to depend on someone who would walk away from me. And I couldn't answer. Is this the person who I could trust? If he had thought about how it affects me before he did that, why did he still do it? It may be a small thing to everyone, but to me, its the feeling of being left alone behind.I have had enough people who walked away, I need someone who stays with me, no matter how hard it is to. Im asking for the impossible.
