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Thursday, June 23, 2011 11:44 PM

Cant do it

The silence is killing everone present. The question mark is hanging in the air. I dont wanna leave. I cant bear it that i will be away if something were to happen.
We all want her to be strong but seeing how she suffer, what is the correct thing to want?
I wish i have someone to stand by me and tell me this time is the same as all those previous times, that shes gonna be fine. That we are all just paranoid. That whatever we are fighting about is trivial, that everyone has the best interest for her, that all these drama will stop one day, that all this is just misunderstanding and miscommunication.

I need to be strong. Even when im not.

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Wednesday, June 22, 2011 8:08 PM

No one

I feel useless and theres nothing i can do. Grandma hospitalised again. I feel like im breaking apart just watching her try to smile but too weak to. I wish i had someone to hug and cry instead of having to be brave and smile.
All i needed was to maybe talk to you. But i guess, you are not interested. Waited for this moment yet wishing it would never come. Its just me against the world now.
I can be brave, but just not today.
*[[lenice]]*
-let me sleep and never wake.

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Thursday, June 9, 2011 5:55 PM

korean food at amara!=]

we had a dinner at this korean restaurant for BND"s birthday. It was quite awhile back but i didnt managed to upload the pics until today.
on a side note, BND has enlisted. so to be glad, i wont see him for awhile. To be sad, im invisible nowadays with the exception of wanting something from me.=[

*[[lenice]]*

-just so you know, we are all back to where we start.

MALE!!

kurumba resort!

the scene outside the balcony

through that door, you get an outdoor shower!

snorkeling!

day break craziness!

middle of the night jacuzzi.

a drink after work.=]]

the souvenir from this flt.=[[

and now they are having a onboard promotion for staff. so i bought rubbish items like this pair of therapy sock. mad cute and comfy!! and hand lotion and make up base. who said there's nothing to buy for male? =xx

the trip was super fun because all the people were crazy. but after a while, i got sick of the craziness, esp when they are just beside your room! make you so tired but too high to really relax.

the night started with a innocent drink after we reached the resort. then some crazy dude suggested we go swimming in the middle of the night, so we went swimming and tried looking for sea cucumber and fishes in the darkness.

jacuzzi afterwards followed by more daybreak photo taking.

the next day we went snorkeling at some fall followed by lunch and some otot.

been always trying to find the must go destination of the year, i found it! but thinking about the expenses if i were to come on my own, i better start looking for some rich old ah pek to marry!

the place is awesomeeeee!! wish babyy was there!!@.@ now that i found the summer must go place, maybe i will leave it to babyy to decide for the winter one. i love winter when im not freezing cold and most winter places is such a nice change that i feel like its all must go! hehes.=x

*[[lenice]]*

-i harts male!